Discouraged, but determined.

I’m listening to Adsense Immersion Workshop by Dr. Mike Woo-Ming.

I started listening to this workshop with hopes that it’ll give me the tools I needed to start making money with adsense. To my surprise it discouraged me. Not because of the content of the workshop. I’m only a little over half way through and the content is great.

My discouragement came from inside. During the workshop they had a guest speaker. A guy named Sarcus (spelling?). He really made me open my eyes and look at myself. Majority of my failure has been due to my own procrastination and lack of goal setting.

I’ve studied personal success and setting goals for myself. I thought I was acting in a manner that would result in my success. I guess I was wrong.

Maybe I don’t have the “balls” that Sarcus noticed in majority of the successful people online. Sarcus has the “balls”, you can tell. He also mentioned Frank Kern as another person with “balls” and I fully agree. I love Frank’s “lazy” attitude.

These people have seen major success online and continue to do so. Sarcus made a lot of money in an extremely short period of time. He’s growth is overwhelming.

So I ask myself. Do I have what it takes? The simple answer is “I don’t know”. I haven’t experienced this type of success and responsibility before, so I don’t know if I have the “balls” to be able to manage this. Should I worry about it? Probably not. Do I have the dedication to make this a success? I say yes, but do I? A friend of mine used to say “Just do it”. I keep saying this to myself, but I never actually just do it. I keep trying to learn more, and study more, and do more of everything else except for just doing it.

I never feel I’m ready to just do it, but I guess that’s my real problem. No one is really ready to start something new. I’m required in my job to learn and apply new things all the time. I’m given very little training and just dumped in to swim for myself. Why can’t I take this ability to my personal success? I don’t know.

Maybe I’m too lazy? Maybe it’s just that I put off anything boring. I enjoy learning about Internet marketing. I enjoy creating a site and working out the bugs and getting it online. I hate trying to promote it. So what do I do? I create a site and move on. I never spend the time to promote it. I never split test anything. I throw it together and move on to something new. No wonder, I have never seen any real success online.

My goals are simple, but they are not detailed enough. I have a goal to make $1.50 a day, but I don’t have a deadline, a plan, or anything really to make that goal a success. It’s a simple goal, but without a way to reach that goal, it’s worthless. I might have just as well said my goal was $1.5 million. It’s all the same if I don’t actually create a plan to reach my goal.

I make excuses for my behavior. My main excuse is time. I know I don’t have a lot of time free to do this considering that 15 hours of my day is already accounted for by transportation, work, and family. The rest is for personal success and sleep. Not much to work with, but I could take an hour each night to do something. Instead I spend that time watching a video on Internet marketing, listening to a seminar, or other form of self improvement. I’m not actually doing anything that will produce results. I guess my thoughts are that although I’m not seeing an immediate return on my investment, the knowledge I’m learning will pay off for me in the long run. Maybe I should just do it and stick a site online, and work on building content for that site instead.

So what do I do next. It seems obvious doesn’t it? Create a plan to achieve my goals. The problem with creating a plan is knowing what to do to. I’m so lost I can’t see the forest for the trees. Things seem so clear when I read or hear it, but to put it in practice I get overwhelmed and discouraged, especially when I don’t get an immediate response. Plus, my plans are vague and not that useful. More like general guidelines rather than plans and procedures. I guess that’s where I need help. It’s the initial momentum that’s the hardest to overcome.

But, I’m still determined to make 2007 my year. Just do it.